coronavirus is like 5 minutes away from me and i'm doing online school as a year round thing to keep homeschooling & get credits for high school but
i didn't get to do anything this spring break and i'm going back to school on monday and i'm not ready to go back to school and now our house has a leak...
honestly like, back in december i was supposed to go and visit my long distance friend but i didn't bc i was mad at her and now idk when we'll get to meet again and i hate my life rn
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Thu, 03/26/2020 - 02:00
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i can relate,, im in isolation and havent seen other people besides my family for two weeks and counting. its rlly doing my head in. this lack of social stimulation is messing w me a bit lol,, wbu?? how do u cope w being away from people so long? usually this sort of thing happens during my summer holidays but im able see people out of school so its not as bad-
im just so used to going 2 school and seeing people there who ease my boredom ;w; tho i dont hate it, this isolation thing, its easier to get anything done and u have so much TIME, which is great.
my holidays are gonna end up being 5 weeks instead of two which is cool, but next term my schools doing a homeschool program (supposedly, if corona is still aggressively infecting everyone) which is /bad/ bcuz then ill actually have 2 do school work at a school level instead of slacking off @ home lmao.
im also kinda pissed @ my friends,, one of which is really just kicking her feet back and not doing /any/ of the homework sent to her and the other is ignoring me slightly,, i know thats my own fault bcuz ive been a rlly shitty friend the last few months (cuz of my stupid symptoms and other stuff) and im not sure if they like me as much as they used to and that makes me incredibly unstable lol. i hate what ive done and who ive become. i wanna let them know that i know ive been a terrible friend and im sorry,, but since ive been such an attention seeker lately im wary that they may just take it at face value and dismiss it as another attention seeking message, and distance themselves from me even more. i know it'll work out soon enough but 4 now im storta stuck in a limbo. every time i open my emails i see notifs from them and their chat room and i just,,, cant,,,, i dont wanna talk to them,,,, but i do at the same time,,,,, i can feel myself getting all excited about literally nothing and telling me to talk to them even tho i dont rlly want 2.
this has all been exacerbated by the corona and isolation since i spend like 90% of my time online lol. also its given me a chance to sort out my thoughts,,, i think,,,
also im aware this is one big ass attention seeking rant about myself and my life and im sorry,,, i'll try 2 be less self-absorbed.
hope ur lives r running smoother than mine lol :)))
Broski just know that you guys here at loom community are like my 2nd fam and y'all can come to me for anything, so if you need to rant just go ahead cuz we all need to at some point right?
in terms of socializing i really do miss my friends, but they've barely contacted me even though I was on spring break last week ): I didn't text them bc a lot of the time they leave me on read, so I figured, if they wanna text me they'll text me, but they haven't. So that's been a little eye opening and sad.
aah! i feel for u,, being left on read is one of the worst feelings ever,, even tho it might not /seem/ a big deal it hurts :((( im sorry for them being inconsiderate of you :(( you're a great person who deserves good friends.
also its been four years since we all sorta met up on lc and we keep coming back lol even though this site is mostly dead. maybe we'll meet up irl one day :)
I understand you. I haven't been out of my house in weeks and I'm getting really bored. I'm used to not being around other people since I stay at home most of the time, but not going anywhere at all for this long is making me irritated and I hope it'll end soon. This didn't seem attention seeking to me, you can rant all you want and I'd never think that. Sometimes we just have to spill our thoughts and thats fine.
I hope this whole corona situation dies down soon. It hasn't been fun and I just want everything back to normal.
Hello, I feel you guys, quarantine is the worst and California is not the place to be. I hope everyone is enjoying their lives in this quarantined mess. Stay happy and healthy loomers. :) :(